I need to get this huge load off my chest.

People keep on asking "How's your new job?"

My standard answer, "Yeah, okay. Surviving." when I am totally not. I don't want people
to ask me so much that I came to a point of 'nothing to conclude cos I ain't got anything
else to say'. Honest opinion: My task is pretty simple. As an illustrator, WOW such a
good job description yadda-yadda but then again, it doesn't let me open up my
creative side by drawing picture compositions.

If you KNOW me very well, I can't draw humans for nuts. Okay, so what if I know how
to draw mangas (beginner's stage) it's not like as if I am superb at it! I am more of
the marketing collateral side and I should take up web-designing in the future.

Ah. I should just get back to studying for a degree be it NIE or someplace alienated.
Actually the best thing that I can do is to take a 1 month's break - ROTTING.

What I don't like about this task of mine is I am supposed to learn how to sell the
product itself. It's not like I am excellent at public speaking, I am a shy person YOU
KNOW. I am trying, I think though no effort could be seen since I lack of motivation.

I am demoralized at how this co. is still in the process of SETTING UP which I didn't
expect to be such a total turn-off, it's worse than BR. Look, I'm still trying to find the right
job for me.

It'll take a while.

That's what a lot of people say.

Endurance test.